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I don't want to write tonight.

I don't want to do the hard work of fashioning thoughts into words. Forget sentences. (Sigh)

I'm out of energy. I'm out of ideas. I'm out of practice.

I have a reminder that greets me each morning; it pops up on my computer, my phone, and my tablet. It's a reminder to write. Unfortunately, I've been in a long stretch of not feeling much like writing, so day after day I have ignored that nagging little reminder. I silence it for the day, checking the little box next to it, fooling it into thinking I actually did the work. I get to enjoy all the satisfaction of checking off boxes without actually doing anything.

I haven't taken the simple step of simply deleting my recurring reminder. I haven't quite asked it to go away, only to come back another day.

You see, I know that I'm not actually satisfied by just checking off the box. Pretending I did something and actually doing something are not the same. I know this.

To be a writer you have to write. To have the next idea you have to be faithful with the one you have…or the one you don't have yet. You don't get to be creative by only creating when you're inspired. You don't get to be great if the only time you ever create is when you feel like it.

After all, isn't it more creative to create when you least feel like it? Isn't that really "out of the box" thinking? The best idea you can possibly have is to get to work whether you have an idea or not.